I woke up yesterday morning feeling like someone had hit me across my face with a frying pan… but I hadn’t done anything physical to cause that. I woke up feeling an enormous amount of stress, weight and burden… but there were no reasons, currently, in my life to feel that way. But let me back up and explain why I woke up feeling that way.
You see, my whole life I’ve had something that some may call a blessing but I call a curse. I’m extremely observant and as a result, I’m able to insert myself into someone’s life emotionally. I can feel what they feel even if I haven’t experienced it before. I can sense what they are going through even if I have never gone through it before myself. Then it hit me, THIS is what Jesus felt like all the time.
He saw Matthew where he was. He saw Zacchaeus where he was. He saw Mary and the hurt she was dealing with. He saw the adulterer and the shame she felt. And He felt it ALL.
I’ve wrestled my whole life with the dichotomy of my analytical brain and my ability to feel. Part of me wants to rely solely on facts. In fact, most of me wants to rely solely on facts. They are much more reliable than feelings. But there’s a part of me that can’t hide nor deny that impact of how I feel or how others feel.
The facts of the recent George Floyd case suggest a few things. Another angry man who was given power abused that power and ended the life of someone else. The facts in our country show that every man and woman in 2020 have the same opportunity to be successful. The same opportunity to get a good job. To go to college.
The facts show that, according to Larry Elder, Coleman Hughes, and Thomas Sowell, the number one problem in America, both black and white, is fatherless homes. That the incentives put in place in the 60’s to receive government assistance as long as there is no man in the home, single-handedly caused a spike in fatherless homes. Bringing that number from 25% of black children born in fatherless homes in the 60’s to 75% today. Bringing that number from 8% of white children born to fatherless homes to 25% today.
The facts show that the cop who held his knee down on Floyd wrongfully was abruptly fired the next day and approximately 2 days later was arrested. The exact protocol for anyone in occupations where fatalities are a regular part of the job-EMT, police, fire fighter, military. But STILL, there were protests, riots, and looting. There was still anger. There was still extreme pain. But why? The man that did wrong was held accountable. None of this made any sense to my analytical brain. But I still woke up FEELING the way I did. How is that?
A couple of years ago, my wife once told me how she was feeling about certain people in our life. I just knew that her feeling was wrong and unfounded. And my first reaction was to sling facts at her to prove my point. To be right (BTW- in marriage, a man can be happy or he can be right, but he can’t be both. Ha!). She didn’t feel any better. The primary reason was because I hadn’t listened to her. I heard her speak but I didn’t listen. There’s a difference. Once I stopped trying to be right and LISTENED, We got somewhere. Something else happened, I found that, in a way, she was right. So my facts were subjected to the WHOLE truth, which included feelings.
So what does that mean to us? No matter the race, the gender, the occupation, the whole story will always consist of two parts… FACTS AND FEELINGS. You really can’t have one without the other. I’m a big fan of the statement, “Facts don’t care about your feelings”, but I do! It’s true, facts are just facts. But I care about your feelings. It’s part of the story… part of your story.
The emotion of what happened to many black people’s grandparents is still very real. The feeling of what happened to young black men growing up is very real. Should we all be following the law and doing as law enforcement says when approached? Of course. But no one deserves to die over small issues and when something like that happens, it’s like the entire country takes a huge step backwards. The emotion of our nation’s past rises up… then we’re left with a decision. Start throwing facts… or start listening.
From watching all of the peaceful protests closely, I can tell you there was a theme. LISTEN. They want to be heard. I can also tell you from being married there’s a theme… LISTEN… she wants to be heard.
I’ve found that if I will just listen first and react or respond after, truly listen, I will have a much more compassionate response to what I’m hearing from my wife. And as a result, she will be quicker to hear me out. This applies to all walks of life. “It’s not what you’re saying, it’s how you’re saying it!” I’ve heard that a lot from my wife.
So as I woke up yesterday feeling the weight of the world, I finally realized why. I’m feeling all of the people that just want to be heard, peacefully. If there was ever a time to listen first and respond later, it’s 2020. The whole story cannot be told by facts alone. Feelings are valid and help tell the whole story. Every black person I know cares about white lives. Every white person I know cares about black lives. For the first time, I stopped slinging facts and listened. I then realized that “Black Lives Matter” meant that they want to be heard. No one will listen to your facts until you’ve listened to their feelings. I challenge you to start listening to someone that doesn’t look like you. Sit down for a coffee, a meal, and listen to what they have to say with an open mind. It’s the only way we bridge the gap that clearly exists.
Stay Classy GP!
Grainger